Feeling Good After Pretty Much Getting a Job

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lP-pSjd1r-Y Today, after sleeping for about 7 hours, I applied at the car wash by the freeway in Rohnert Park. It was a struggle, because I rode my brother's bike, which has been sitting for probably a year or more, and needs work. But at least it's a bike, rather than walking. I had to ask him for the combination to the lock, then I had to struggle to get it to open. I got it, after several tries. The tires were low, but it was rideable. Much better than walking. The manager of the carwash said there were 3 applicants ahead of me, but I applied anyway. My dad then drove me to Petaluma to the package handling interview. I was filming outside of the place, and two women approached me mid-filming. I was observing the natural beauty of the southeast part of Petaluma. It was green and there was a huge lake around which is a trail, and some people were walking. I put the camera down, and smiled and happily told them I was making YouTube videos about how I am changing my life. It was all good...which is great. In the interview, I had to explain why I have a misdemeanor, and within that explanation was a situation when I was caught by the police when dumpster diving. I almost was too embarrassed to mention it, but I said it without much care. I thought maybe should would think I was crazy and wouldn't hire me, but it turned out to be okay. It looks like I'm getting the job, pending the drug test. It will be a long ride there though, at 3:30 in the morning. I can also do the later shift, she said, which is at 4 pm. Then, I went to this staffing agency, but they said I need more recent work experience in order for them to get me jobs. There was a girl in there who was filling out an application who I wanted to talk to, but I felt like I was a perverted, dirty old man that wanted to take advantage of a young defenseless, immature girl. She was at least 18, guaranteed though. Anyway, I received a call in there on my phone which I then returned, and it was about renting a cheap office in Rohnert Park. The manager (on the other end of the phone) asked me what kind of business I had. I said that I didn't have a business, and that I wanted to live there and sleep there. She said I couldn't sleep there. I said that I used to sleep in my dad's office in Rohnert Park. She said, "Well why don't you just go back there?" I said that he wasn't there anymore, and said I was sleeping at my mom's apartment and I "want to get outta there, ya know?" She said I couldn't sleep there, and would have to have an established business, like with a business license and clients first, then I could move in. Then I went to my dad's office. I noticed the receptionist in there does not smile. And there is this tall, good looking woman (but a little chubby) who is in there too. The one who does not smile did not smile, and the good looking one looked at me when I was smiling, and made this weird expression which seemed that she felt pity for me that I was following my dad around, or she felt attraction and was about to blush, but forced a frown to prevent that, because she was married or something, and walked away. Then I went to the drug test. The wait time was 4 hours, so I left, because the girl said she would call me. Ah, those are nice words to hear. smile emoticon Then, I went back to my mom's place and the technician was installing cable internet. There were a lot of problems getting it hooked up. He said the cabling at the place was old and needed to be replaced, and was not sure if the internet would work. I was feeling good and was talking to him pretty easily (normally it would be massively anxiety-provoking. I said that I was trying to get the same job he was doing, and then he suggested that I apply to San Rafael, because it was easier to get a job there. So I did, and put his name in the application when it asked for his name. There was negative emotion because I was frustrated, so I wanted to call the landlord or the property manager and try to get them to upgrade the wiring, but my mom didn't want to, so it was frustrating. I was trying to understand why she didn't want me to call...I attributed her behavior to anxiety, which was attributed to negative thinking. It's probably just caused by bad microorganisms in the gut, because I am feeling significantly better by not eating foods which feed bad microorganisms. Due to how I feel (mostly), I am thinking positively and having fun talking to people (since my change in diet). It would be fun to just call the landlord and chat. We need to focus on the positive. Then, I went back to get my physical. I ran there, due to feeling good. I was smiling in there. There were a few good looking women in there, and I was able to smile at them and comfortably talk to them. The 75-pound weight pickup test was challenging for me. I had to pick up a crate of 75 pounds of metal weights. My legs got weak when I did it. I haven't been working out, so that was expected. I tripped over this dip equipment's "foot" when I had to carry the crate of 50 pounds and walk out the door. It was a very tiny room that I walked out of, that had the dip apparatus. When I did the pee test, and the good looking girl poured my pee out of the cup into smaller vials, I asked, "So, you like this job?" thinking that this could be considered a gross part of the job that many women wouldn't do. What else should I have said? Should I have said, "You are used to doing dirty things..." or something sexual? I wanted to say something sexual, but was thinking too negatively. I tried to look at her for as long as I could without it being creepy. I felt attraction. I wanted to make love to this woman. I wonder if she was attracted too, even though she did not show any evidence at all with her body language. There was no flirtatious body language. It seems that women do this on purpose. They talk more loudly than they would in the bedroom, and they don't look interested in you. They act robotic. She had a tattoo, and a nose ring. I was thinking of saying, "What does that nose ring mean...does it mean something special (like something sexual like you are wild in bed)?" I went home and stopped at Raley's along the way. I bought organic acorn squash, a 5-pound bag of organic carrots, organic rainbow chard, and regular bananas. There was positive emotion because an old lady observed that the organic bunch of beets were the same price, no matter the size of the beets. One had three large beets, and the other had four very small beets, which was very small compared to the one of 3 large beets. The lady and I agreed that it was odd that they would sell beets in different bunches of a much different weight. I went home and created a Positive Emotion group page on Facebook after I noticed a person emailed me a reply to the Positive Emotion Only Group posting on craigslist that I created. Then I started creating a logo for the page, which includes symbols which represent the seven major positive emotions. Then, I tried to edit the videos I recorded today, but this computer is too slow to do that. It is not fast enough; it was lagging. Then I connected the ethernet cable from the Comcast modem and did a speed test. The result was like 59Mb/sec. download and like 5Mb upload. So it appears to be working. But then I started to watch a video, and put it on 720p (HD) fullscreen, and the images were choppy. They were clear, but not smooth. Therefore, it seems the computer is not strong enough to support such a high speed. This is a Pentium 4, 2GB machine. In 2009, I bought a quad-core, 8GB computer to edit video, but my dad gave it away because he thought it was old. So, I need a faster computer in order to watch high-quality videos, and also to edit the videos I make. I then uploaded a 30-min video, and it only took about 45 minutes, instead of the 645 minutes or whatever on the DSL. So, problem solved. Let's review the main things we are focusing on (the reason I say "we" is because I want to get people who are also fully interested and excited about what I am doing. I want to attract people to me who would want to team up with me to create something together which we both are super passionate about creating. Here is what I am passionately focusing on: 1. Getting a full-time job, to make money in order to: 2. Get an apartment, 3. Get an office, 4. Get a car (in order to save time and also to be able to have other positive, energetic people around me when I travel) and 5. Pay off all debt (in order to get my credit score as high as possible) and 6. In the apartment the positive emotion group will meet and hangout. That's what I'm focusing on right now. I want to create music videos that inspire people to be healthy and happy, but I don't know when that will happen. I guess I am not that passionate about that. Maybe I'm just not that healthy right now; I haven't been working out. I will get a better job, make more money, start my own business, make more money, rent a house, make more money, buy a house, get a Lincoln Navigator or a Cadillac Escalade, get a better body, better skin, better clothing, get better people, etc. I'm going to start a business that helps people get healthy and fit and happy. It will be a business where I consult with them and help them one-on-one, and also in a group format, and I will sell books. I have started writing my book which explains the whole Skid Row story, and it sums up why I went to Skid Row and how nutrition affected me physically and psychologically, and how the reader can profit from my experience. We will team up to create a huge seminar, such as the Vegsource Expo. Also the office will turn into something similar to True North, which is a mansion that people go to to just drink water (fasting) and get healthy. Once you drink water for a couple days, when you eat healthy food (no oil, salt, sugar, refined foods, processed foods, etc.), the food will start to taste good. You will probably feel worse temporarily for a few days while the body readjusts, but after that, you should feel great. I didn't feel great today because I did not take a shower due to missing my time slot for the bathroom, and also I didn't shave, and my hair was messed up, which I think causes people to think my head is not on straight. Every Sunday night I will post my financial statements. I like the feel of Sunday evenings...don't you love sitting back, relaxing, enjoying the clean cool air, looking at the computer, seeing where you are and optimistically visualizing where you want to be, while sipping a cold glass of ice water with a lot of ice in it? Good furniture makes a difference. We will have great furniture. Isn't it better to save up to buy high-quality furniture? We are getting healthier and happier every day.

The type of people you are around is very important!

I got up at about 5 a.m. this morning and went to a flea market to work. My mom drove me. It was a failure because: 1. When I first read the craigslist ad, it sounded like there would be work for everyone who showed up, guaranteed. But when we got there, the flea market manager told everyone that we just had to go up to each vendor and ask if they needed work. One man expressed disappointment at her (because of the misleading ad), while she was sitting in her car with the window rolled down, taking vendor lot payments from vendors, and telling the workers and I the depressing news. She said that she could call the sheriff if he was going to talk to her like that. I was angry too. The work was not guaranteed at all. She said it was first come, first serve. She then pointed out a trailer in the distance that was starting to be unloaded that they might need help, so I moved with alacrity toward it. I asked them if they needed a worker, and the response was a cold, "No." Then, a little later, someone else asked another vendor, and it was a straight, "No." 2. More importantly, everyone there was older, and they were not healthy and vibrant. They were almost all men. There were no young people. There were no hot women. There was no one laughing. There was no one smiling. There was no one who smiled and said, "Hi, how are you doing this morning!" I said, "Good morning" to someone, but he didn't respond. It was like I was in Skid Row again. 3. It started to rain a little, but looked like it could rain a lot. Worrying about the rain is annoying. That's one reason southern California is better. When we were driving there, I was thinking, "What am I doing?" The sky was dark. The road was dark. There were no people. I was feeling like I was wasting my life. "Where are the women?" "This place is dead." "This is death." "I need to move to the good parts of L.A." "I need to move to the beach." "I need to get around good looking, young, happy women." "Where are the sexy bodies?" "Where are the smiles?" "Where is the happiness?" The people you are around are so much more important than you may realize! I never really considered this. We need to be around positive emotion. People who focus on solving problems and solve them. After focusing on positive emotion constantly, when someone emits negative emotion, it's easy to notice the difference. It helps you focus that much harder on putting yourself in a positive environment. It is more clear what you want. You decide to never put yourself in that environment again.

I am using my dad's old computer. He is letting me use it. The one my mom had was too slow. I realized that Quickbooks Premier Accountant Edition 2012 is on this one (my dad is an accountant). Lucky me. The reason he had to get a new computer was because the Lacerte accounting software required the newer Windows operating system, I think. So now I am going to set up a file and start keeping track of my income and expenses down to the penny. We (you and I and everyone else watching) are doing everything as perfectly as possible so that we realize our dreams. We focus on what we want, and then we determine the plan on how to get it. We do everything according to the plan. We are going to save a certain percentage of our income. For every dollar earned, 10 cents will be saved automatically. I am going to make my bank automatically deposit ten percent of whatever is deposited into my checking account, into a savings account. So if you do a job tomorrow, and make 60 bucks, you will deposit it into your checking account, and then instantly the 60 will change to 54 in your checking account, and 6 in your savings. Stay tuned folks, because I am going to be showing you how much money I am going to accumulate. I am starting with nothing...actually, a negative amount, because I have debts to pay. I started on the streets of Skid Row, Los Angeles, with just a bicycle and a backpack, and $75 which was loaned to me.



Ok...so here is a snapshot of my financial situation: What I own, and what I owe. Notice that I have $300 in Bank of America. I didn't realize that. That was very surprising to me. I forgot I put it in there. I put it in there because I was going to get a secured credit card, but didn't sign up for it yet. Also notice I have negative 5 in Chase. That was caused by them charging a $10 fee, when the balance was 5. They charge the fee each month if I don't deposit at least $1,000 per month, I think. And notice "Calfresh"...that's food stamps. And Cash is the amount of cash I have on hand. My mom gave me 23 dollars yesterday for the bus. So, that's how much money I have. That's what I own. Now...for what I owe, I owe a lot. I owe my dad because he loaned me the money to buy a pickup truck in 2010, which in 2011 was impounded because I drove it when my license was suspended, because in 2009 I passed out due to inadequate nutrition combined with the bad effects of food sensitivities, and when I went to renew my license later, I was honest on the application by saying that I passed out one time in my life. Therefore, the DMV said that I had to go to a doctor to get approved to drive. I didn't want to go, and was very lazy due to eating wheat and corn and animal products, so I drove my truck thinking I would only get a ticket. Well, I rolled though a stop sign intersection, and a police car was behind me and impounded my vehicle because I had already known that my license was suspended because one morning at like four in the morning, I was dumpster diving and a police officer saw me and made me sign something which documented that I knew that my license was suspended. He said it was okay for me to dumpster dive, as long as the police would not hear about anyone breaking into, or vandalizing, their store. So, my truck was impounded, and it was impounded for a mandatory 2 months, and the storage fees were $65...so I told my dad and he said those fees were probably $65 per day, therefore the fees were going to add up to about $3,900, therefore, it would not be worth even getting the truck back. But we bought it for $8,000 only about 10 months earlier, therefore it should have been worth a couple thousand at least. But I didn't have the money to pay for the storage fees, and my dad didn't want to pay them. I left for L.A. about three weeks after the truck was impounded and just wrote it off in my mind as a loss (If I were healthy, I would have gotten it back somehow, though, probably...or at least sold it so that I got a couple thousand from it). I owe my mom because she loaned me money to get my security guard card (which I never used). I owe one of my baseball coaches because he gave me a wood bat and he said he wanted $25 for it, but I never paid him. I owe my sister because she let me stay at her place a few days ago, and paid for my bus ticket. I owe U.S. Bank because that was my main credit card and I used up all the credit to pay my rent at my apartment in Rohnert Park in 2008 and 2009, but I wasn't making much income at the time. I owe Capital One, because that was just another credit card that I used to buy stuff with and didn't have income to pay it off. And I owe Sprint because I bought a laptop and a cell phone with only like $88 down, and subscribed to voice, text, and data for 2 years, but then cancelled after a few months, and only paid for one of the months, so they charged me $400 because I cancelled early. I am assuming they are still charging me interest, so that's why the number is high. So...this is an example of what happens when you are sick. For me, it was wheat and corn that caused this. Maybe it was all grains. I have been feeling better since eating no grains. My anxiety is lower. So...I am going to show you how this money is going to grow. And I am going to show you how I act in order to live a good life. I want to prove that it is possible to start from nothing (the streets of Skid Row) and achieve greatness. Stay tuned.

How to Blog: 10 Guidelines to Follow if You Want to Be Successful

There is more to blogging than just writing some words on a page once in awhile. There is a specific procedure to blogging that will make you successful. If success means making money, then you should follow these steps:

1. Keep your blog posts from 200 words to 300 words in length.

2. Use numbers instead of letters; for example, write 200 instead of two hundred.

3. Write blogs every day, or every other day, but post on a regular basis.

4. Write in bullet-form, instead of in paragraphs.

5. Choose titles for your blog that users are searching for, but are having a hard time finding. You want the number of user searches to be as high as possible while having the number of competing web pages to be as low as possible.

6. Blog for months or years, using the above guidlines, and you will make good money.

7. Post your blogs on sites such as ezinearticles.com, goarticles.com and articlesbase.com.

8. Submit your blogs to social networking sites such as Facebook, Myspace, etc.

9. Submit your blogs to social bookmarking sites such as digg.com, reddit.com, etc.

10. Write about things you're interested in. Otherwise, you'll become bored and probably will give up after only a few days.

Photo:  Steve Pavlina, a highly successful blogger.

Where Everything is Free: Downtown, Los Angeles, CA.

There is a place where you can get everything you need to succeed. And it costs no money. Come to LA and here’s what you’ll get:

Free housing: For 90 days, first in dorm room, then when you get a job or are going to school, you can get your own room.

-Free hotel voucher: 16 nights free in own room.

-Free year-long “program” which I actually wouldn’t call “free,” because you have to attend classes and get a job and save money.

Free money: $221 per month for 9 months per year.

Free food money: $176 per month which can be used at every major grocery store, many convenience stores, many Subway restaurants, and some other restaurants, including McDonald’s.

Free clothing. Free soap, shampoo, razors, etc.

Free doctor: Including, but not limited to: blood test, ultrasound, electrocardiogram, echocardiogram, psychiatrist

Free dentist: You have to play a lottery each morning at 7. Or you can make an appointment at this other place 6 or 7 months in advance.

Free food: Hippy Kitchen, Midnight Mission, Union Mission. Various groups giving out food out of their trucks and vans on the street.

Free library: 2 hours of computer access per day, 5 days per week (if you have a laptop, you can access the wifi anywhere in the building during all hours the library is open). You can have 30 books checked out. Look up and place holds on the books you want, then they will ship them to the branch library of your choosing. I just checked out 10 books today on how to make money on the internet.

Hollywood is 7 miles away. The beach is 17 miles away. USC is 3 or 4 miles away. The sky is blue. It has rained twice in four months.

If you want to know more, such as exactly how to obtain these resources, I will update this post soon with the exact addresses and times, etc.

Note: There are so many other resources around downtown LA that I have not mentioned. Some of which I am not aware. Of the ones I am aware, I did not mention because although they cost no money, are not free in my opinion due to the non-monetary costs of obtaining them, that is, what you have to go through to obtain them is not worth it.

Know Your Horse

Habits are like horses stubbornly traveling down trails. When you think about what you want, your “horse” is going to resist; your body is going to respond negatively in the form of negative emotions such as anxiety, fear, guilt, shame, doubt, or worry. But the “secret” is that, if you remain relaxed and patient, and think about what you want as though you already have it, as though you are already experiencing it, and continue to tell yourself that this is where you’re going, that this is the person you are, that this is what you have, that this is who you’ve always been and always will be--then the “horse” will change its course—you will notice that the actions you are taking are now in agreement with what you consciously want. You’ll be doing the things you know you should do. You won’t procrastinate anymore. It’ll become easier and easier as time goes on. You’ll love yourself. You’ll be one of those people who say, “I wouldn’t have it any other way.” At first, you are going to imagine yourself as the person you want to be, or you are going to temporarily act as the person you want to be, and it may feel very awkward. You may think to yourself, “This isn’t me,” or “I could never do that,” or “This is ridiculous,” or “I feel like an idiot.” But just be patient. Breathe. Soon you will be comfortable thinking how you ideally want to think, speaking how you want to speak, walking the way you want to walk, earning the amount of money you want to earn, doing the things you need to do in order to produce the results you want.

The Subconscious and Neuroplasticity

Why do people smoke cigarettes even though there are pictures on each pack, of diseased lungs (in some countries)…or a person with a hole in her neck (Remember that TV commercial)?...not to mention how disgusting cigarette smoke smells. In other words, why do smart people do stupid things? Well, their behavior doesn’t have much to do with how smart they are…how smart they are is calculated by measuring the power of their conscious mind. The power of the conscious mind is insignificant compared to the subconscious. It doesn’t matter if you’re the smartest person in the world, unless you use your smarts to steer your subconscious in the direction you consciously want to go. If you’ve ever ridden a horse, then this might make sense to you…especially a horse that is used to being ridden along a well-beaten trail. The horse will automatically follow the trail, unless you yank the reins in the direction you want to go. And you’ll have to yank the reins many times; the horse will, at first, continue along the trail despite your efforts to change its course. It’s not going to be easy to forge a new trail; to teach this “old dog” new tricks. And this is how your brain is set up. Your brain cells are like trails. You can create new paths and trails of brain connections if you want to. It’s simple, but not easy. It takes time and repetition and strengthening of these neural networks. They say it takes 30 days to make a behavior a habit. But some say it may take 90 days. Whatever the actual number, my point is that you must be patient and persistent and not give up too easily. You must give it time. When changing your habits, you may feel worse before you feel better. Hang in there; your body is changing and adapting; it's like when you lift weights and you are sore for the next few days. Feel confident and at ease and assured that you, soon, will adapt to, and feel comfortable with, being the person you want to be.